Today was our Stake Temple day, I went back and forth about going, if I was feeling up to it. But decided to go in the end. The Temple is the perfect place to put everything in perspective. There are a few things normal people (with hair) don't think of when going to the Temple, but I've done this before and know that you can "rent" a white hat. Well not anymore. I rented my clothing and asked if I could have a hat to cover my head, the sweet sister called another sister to ask where they put the hats. And this sister said "Oh, we don't have those anymore". Tears instantly, and wondering what do I do? Now if you know me, and have been to my house, you've seen me bald, but at the Temple, with a lot of members from my stake? My worries, I don't want to be a distraction, the sisters assured me that it would be okay. Another issue, I brought my packet and my packet contains a veil that clips into you hair (or hat), I can't use that, so I got a different veil. I could not stop the tears, what was I crying about, I'm not a vain person, why was this upsetting me. I guess I am a little vain, because why else would this bother me, there is not judging in the Temple, this is just ME. Anyway, back to putting things into perspective... with each "bad" chemo treatment, it wears me down, I feel sorry for myself, I feel like "I don't think I can do this", I feel like "Heavenly Father, HELP".
Perspective... I learned a couple of things today. When Eve partook of the fruit, she took it with the knowledge that she would out of the bitter, taste the sweet. We can not know how sweet things are unless we have tasted the challenging bitter. I've heard this countless times as I've attended the Temple, but today it reaffirmed to me that "I can do this"!, "I can do this"! Heavenly Father, loves each of us, I think if he could have done it any other way, but allow Eve to partake of the fruit he would have. But He know that she (we) needed to.
Then, later in my Temple visit, I had the beautifully, peaceful feeling of my Heavenly Fathers love for me. At the conclusion at the veil, with tears streaming down my face, I was reminded that I can have health, marrow to my bones, and most importantly Power from the Priesthood. I knew! He knows me and Love me and is helping me.
Just keep going Kim.
Perspective... I learned a couple of things today. When Eve partook of the fruit, she took it with the knowledge that she would out of the bitter, taste the sweet. We can not know how sweet things are unless we have tasted the challenging bitter. I've heard this countless times as I've attended the Temple, but today it reaffirmed to me that "I can do this"!, "I can do this"! Heavenly Father, loves each of us, I think if he could have done it any other way, but allow Eve to partake of the fruit he would have. But He know that she (we) needed to.
Then, later in my Temple visit, I had the beautifully, peaceful feeling of my Heavenly Fathers love for me. At the conclusion at the veil, with tears streaming down my face, I was reminded that I can have health, marrow to my bones, and most importantly Power from the Priesthood. I knew! He knows me and Love me and is helping me.
Just keep going Kim.
